Friday, March 13, 2015
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
Trying new things
So I have a plan, and since we all know how my plans normally turn out (big ideas, not a whole lot of return *sigh*) I'm starting small. I'm going to be getting up at 5am every day.
Why I'm trying this is that it will force me to go to bed earlier, as well as giving me time by myself to 'prep' for the day without kids running around while I'm trying to get myself ready to walk out the door for work.
So far (keep in mind this is day one) it's gone okay, I'm up -obviously- but I've been up since 2:30, because I woke up suddenly with no cause and couldn't shut my brain off to go back to sleep. Since then I've made coffee, goofed off and after this will be taking a shower and ironing my shirt for work, then relaxing until I have to leave. If things continue, preferable without having to get up at 2am instead of 5, I think this will work well for me.
Friday, March 6, 2015
I'm Sorry
I just can't lately, I can't post, I can't get anything done around the house, I just can't do anything lately. It's so hard and so frustrating.
I just start out with so many spoons at the beginning of the day, and somehow they just all slip away before I can make it home from work, and I just feel like I'm running on empty at the time when my family needs me most. Which just drains me so much. (If you have no idea what I'm talking about when I say spoons, click the link above, it's a wonderful article and one of the better explanations that I've seen to explain when I"m feeling just so utterly drained and just feel like I can't function any longer)
I know I'm not, but I just feel like such a failure all the time lately. I know it's very draining for Husband to try to support me as well as keeping everything up around the house, because I'm not much of a help (well, I'm more of a hinderance the last week or so rather than a help)
I don't want anyone to worry about me, I'm doing okay, for the most part, I just need somewhere I can out my feelings and just kind of word vomit somewhere other than in Husband's ear.
I just start out with so many spoons at the beginning of the day, and somehow they just all slip away before I can make it home from work, and I just feel like I'm running on empty at the time when my family needs me most. Which just drains me so much. (If you have no idea what I'm talking about when I say spoons, click the link above, it's a wonderful article and one of the better explanations that I've seen to explain when I"m feeling just so utterly drained and just feel like I can't function any longer)
I know I'm not, but I just feel like such a failure all the time lately. I know it's very draining for Husband to try to support me as well as keeping everything up around the house, because I'm not much of a help (well, I'm more of a hinderance the last week or so rather than a help)
I don't want anyone to worry about me, I'm doing okay, for the most part, I just need somewhere I can out my feelings and just kind of word vomit somewhere other than in Husband's ear.
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