Rage post

I am so frustrated and angry I am shaking, so therefore since I cannot yell and scream or take this anger out on the people I view as responsible for this stupidity (technology) I will rage on the internet - as all mature and responsible people do.

I will be working at home through my computer for a telephone company, and tomorrow is our first day of 'nesting' where we start taking live calls. So today during class we tested our phone lines and live systems to make sure we're all set up and ready to go. I got into the live systems with no problem, they're almost identical to the training systems. (which is probably the point) But when we tested the phone lines, I was able to log in, and ring my phone, but when I picked up with my handy dandy headset, I heard a fairly steady tone in my ear (very loudly I might add)
So when I stayed after class tonight to try to figure out what was going on with my phone, we found out that it wasn't working because my phone line is digital, not analog. Well, that just pissed me off, because when I called cox the first time to get my phone service
Well, very very long story short (I was on the phone off and on for an hour trying to get this figured out) I have to call back in the morning because customer retention is not available, nor is customer service, only tech.

So, I will be calling back bright and early before Husband leaves for work and either they will give me an analog phone, or I will be taking my service elsewhere and I will be getting a refund for my phone line, or else Husband is going to get on the phone to get me a refund. I was told I was getting an analog phone line with no bells and whistles, that is not what I got, so therefore I am not going to pay for it.
I am looking forward to yelling at someone tomorrow morning.

But before I call cox I will be calling at&t to see if they have an analog phone line, just so I have a back up and can yell tat to cox before I get my phone line removed.


I went on facebook to rage about the evils of customer service and curse them for not being up late like I am, when i ran across this video.

and it made me feel so much better. Now I'm going to make a snack, kill some things online, take a shower and go to bed, if my brain lets me sleep. 

and I'm off!

zoo day!

Today admission to the zoo was only $1, and it was awesome.

We went around to most of the exhibits. Husband especially wanted to see the bears (mostly because he wanted a picture of him and Loki on the statue)

And of course we had to visit the jungle, Ber and Loki were hiding behind the waterfall. It was quite nifty today, there was fog everywhere near the water. Ended up being quite spooky at times. 

Husband was right at home in the 'nests' of the apes. 

Not pictured here is our friend Irish, she came down this weekend so we though we'd show her a good time :) 

In other news, not much has been going on. I start nesting later this week (taking live calls) which has me quite nervous, but I feel rather confident because I got a 95% on my last test, which gave me an 87.5% overall. I'm doing pretty good. 

And now, I'm going to watch Hulu and knit until bedtime. 

That little voice

worthless

pathetic

insecure

heifer

I can hear the words echoing from the back of my mind. Twinging on my thoughts, infecting, poisoning every compliment that has ever passed my ears.

forgotten

ignored

Her taunts grow stronger the longer I try to block her out. Every happy thought I have She counters with another well placed insult.


friendless

unworthy


The words start to taint my memories, making even the happiest moments dull, lifeless, as though my color world had gone back to black and white.

alone


lonely


Tears fall from my eyes as the taunting overwhelms me. I have no strength to resist Her any longer. The room grows darker as She whispers in my memories, hissing louder as I lay curled in the fetal position on the black sheets.

alone

always alone

Her voices whispers sweetly in my ear, a twisted parody of my own, full of bitterness and contempt.
and self-loathing.

no

ignored

no

forgotten

no

unloved

NO

Tears dampen my cheeks as I force strength into my mind. Her words grow quieter, weaker as I open my eyes.

 I am loved, I am important, I have friends, I am not alone.

She backs away, my face mirrored on Hers, begins to show uncertainty. I step forward as She retreats. Memories begin to gain color, a child's laugh, cheerful chatter of friends, hugs, physical affection. She begins to pale in my mind, as each joyful memory blazes around me. A voice strong, certain, my voice says "You have no power here."

and She is no more.

AWAKE!!!

I am all fired up from class, I did good, understood stuff today, and just feel like I'm on fire! (not literally)

Loki's asleep (finally, poor thing is trying to grow her second tooth)
Husband is tucked in bed sleeping, and all his clothes/work stuffs is set out for him to get up really really early.
Homework done
information read up on

And now, to work on my closet organization/ updating Ravelry stash to help me keep track of everything and stay organized.

Not much to say, but wanted to share

Saw this today when I was looking through my comics, thought it really deserved a share. Especially since I've been in such a craft mood lately.
Things are going well for me right now, had a wonderful weekend with my family, Husband got to have a nice relaxing nerding out at Wizard's Asylum talking about Battletech.

 

Ber and I decided to go crafty while at mom's and took a used oatmeal container and spray painted it. Now it will be used to wrap headbands on the outside and hair brushes and hair ties/barrettes will be stored on the inside. 

(It was my fist experiment with spray painting anything....I have a lot to learn evidently)

While Ber and I were goofing off with the spray paint, Mom was watching the baby (and us) and rocked Loki to sleep.

 Loki hanging out while we made peach crisp (which was delicious!) 

organization!

I've been slowly organizing my 'craft closet' and my WIP's so I can get them finished and taken care of. (some of them are insanely old and only need a couple hours tops to finish.)

And holding with one of the internet's sayings - pics or it didn't happen!

before pics of closet

Still kind of before, I got on ravelry and updated all the hooks and needles I had and took advantage of some of the empty Pringles cans I had laying around. (I thought that was quite smart actually)

This is an example of what is inside of a 'project bag' now. The paper has:

Started-

Project-

Yarn-

Needle-

Pattern- (and where I have it stored if it's on a phone/website/book)

Notes-

A couple of hanging project bags. 

I'm quite looking forward to getting this all organized and squared away. Plus it would be nice to close the closet door, although with that big blue tote and the bookshelf in there I dunno if that will ever happen.

backsliding

I haven't been posting much, which is naughty on my part. But I just get distracted, and forget to update. I think it's because I've started letting chaos take over my house again. I need to get back to my lists, I'll start feeling better and more productive, but I just don't really want to put the effort into it sometimes. I'm backsliding so bad right now, I'm kinda disappointed in myself to be honest.

But tomorrow is another day, and I still need to take a shower before bed. So off I go, and hope Loki sleeps late in the morning.

Had fun with my parents and sister today

Went and hung out with my family today, and Loki had such a great time.

Loki and Midnight the cat hanging out on Gram's front porch

Loki and Ber

We were playing on Gram's tractor. It looks like Loki got my habit of closing my eyes while someone is taking a picture.

Her first bite of 'puffs' (they're kinda like Cheerios, but made for babies) 

She liked them after the first couple bites, but good lord she did NOT like that first bite. 

She still isn't sure what to think of her Gramps....most of the time she just stares at him. 

they were making 'hooting' noises at each other, it was adorable. 

*All but the last three pictures were taken by my mom*

Ugh. I hate frogging a project, especially one that I've spent so much time on!

Getting back in the swing of things

It's hard once you've let your schedule go all to hell to get back into getting everything done. Especially with this new class, it goes till midnight, and as soon as class is done I take Loki from Husband (if she hasn't gone to sleep yet) because he has to be up at 4:30 most mornings, and then Loki and I try to get ready for bed. And after she's asleep I do my pre-work for the next day's class and normally when that's finished I'm so tired I just go crawl into bed.
But today I (mostly) took back my kitchen from the clutter of evil encroaching dishes. Next is to get the counters and stove nice and sparkly again.
And tomorrow .....I had forgotten what I was going to type now..... So I think I'll log off for now, because evidently I'm losing my mind.

I'm still alive!

Lots going on lately, working hard on keeping up with all my homework for my certification class to contract out from Arise. Only done with two weeks, and it last till the end of September! But I am looking forward to going back to work, I think it'll be easier because I'll be able to work from home.

Loki and I are feeling a little better, although Loki's going through a "I want mommy" phase, make me feel rather loved when she's clinging with those tiny hands to my arm rather than go play with her daddy. Oh! We've learned a new trick!

Loki has mastered pulling herself up to stand. Now she's trying to figure out how to move once she's standing. It's quite adorable, but the poor child has my horrible balance! Husband was watching her while I was in class and I heard her start crying. Later he tells me that Loki had been up standing with the couch and the chair, perfect balance no wavering, then plopped down and crawled around the living room for a bit, and then sat up and looked around for a minute and then she had just fell over while sitting up and bumped her head. Evidently her sudden lack of balance surprised her and she started crying.
He started chuckling at this point saying "the poor child has you lack of balance" 

I replied with "let's not say things you can't take back, we don't want to curse the poor thing"

I know it's a rather brief update, but I will come back with a longer update soon, I need to take a shower and go to bed, so I can get up bright and early with Loki in the morning.