worthless
pathetic
insecure
heifer
I can hear the words echoing from the back of my mind. Twinging on my thoughts, infecting, poisoning every compliment that has ever passed my ears.
forgotten
ignored
Her taunts grow stronger the longer I try to block her out. Every happy thought I have She counters with another well placed insult.
friendless
unworthy
The words start to taint my memories, making even the happiest moments dull, lifeless, as though my color world had gone back to black and white.
alone
lonely
Tears fall from my eyes as the taunting overwhelms me. I have no strength to resist Her any longer. The room grows darker as She whispers in my memories, hissing louder as I lay curled in the fetal position on the black sheets.
alone
always alone
Her voices whispers sweetly in my ear, a twisted parody of my own, full of bitterness and contempt.
and self-loathing.
no
ignored
no
forgotten
no
unloved
NO
Tears dampen my cheeks as I force strength into my mind. Her words grow quieter, weaker as I open my eyes.
I am loved, I am important, I have friends, I am not alone.
She backs away, my face mirrored on Hers, begins to show uncertainty. I step forward as She retreats. Memories begin to gain color, a child's laugh, cheerful chatter of friends, hugs, physical affection. She begins to pale in my mind, as each joyful memory blazes around me. A voice strong, certain, my voice says "You have no power here."
and She is no more.
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