Flys = Ladybugs in our house.

*gulping noises in the background*
me - "Bug, what are you doing?"
Bug - *smiling and pointing to the window, "I'm going to eat the ladybug!"
me - "Don't eat the fly."

I got the last laugh

Me to Husband : "look, your writing is so bad that Bug thinks that your writing is her drawing"

Words are hard

I don't really know what to say anymore when i think about updating my blog. I don't feel like we do a whole lot here at home, since we don't really get out much. So to my eyes there's not really a whole lot of interest to post about that. I have these ideas and thoughts that I would love to turn into thought provoking and wonderfully written posts, but I either don't have the time to write it down when I first have the thought and forget, or I just can't put it into words correctly and it just sounds so different from what I actually want to say that I end up scrapping the whole writing.

I am transferring from my current position within the bank to the call center, but other than that there is no big news from either my job or Husbands.

Loki and Odin are both doing well, Odin has mostly recovered from hand foot and mouth, although his blisters haven't quite finished healing, but they're almost back to normal. Loki is as energetic as normal.

We had though that we would be moving this month, but it didn't quite turn out as we though, so we are staying where we are for now, and then next year we will be looking into buying our first house. So there's that to look forward to.

Everyone's sick! Evidently that is just what happens when I have vacation time.

Odd things said in my house

me to Husband: "I don't think I can explain the subtleties of smut to you."

me to Bug: "Don't lick the couch"
"that doesn't mean you can just go lick your brother instead"

me to D and Suv "this is a bad thing and it is all Husband's fault"

I'm Alive!

Just normally really worn out by the time I get home, and then it's dinner and bath and put the kiddos to bed. And after that I just want to relax.

Long story short, I need to make time to blog again, I just am lazy and tired by the end of the day.

Why I'm almost never on Facebook....

A lot of people will make comments when I say that I dislike facebook, most common I hear these two 'how do you stay connected to people?' 'why don't you like facebook?'

1) I stay connected to people by actually talking to them, or texting. Although, I'm not the best at keeping in contact with people. If I want to talk to someone, or if they want to talk to me they know how to contact me.

2) One of the biggest reasons I dislike the site is people just fight so much! Maybe I see this alot because I have friends that will post things that if it can be taken controversially, it will be. Plus Husband can be a little bit of a troll, and will go looking for trouble sometimes.
This is the crux as to why I hate it so much, it's all pointless! Seriously! People get so bent out of shape trying to make people on facebook change their mind, it's never going to work! Even trying to have a healthy discussion with someone who disagrees with you turns into a fight.

All that will come of it is frustration, and there is no constructive way to get rid of those feelings, and the people closest to you aren't the ones that need to suffer from your temper over these things.


I suppose I get more frustrated than most because I see Husband get so frustrated that people don't listen to him, especially if he is right, now in person things go much better, but online I can just see him getting more and more frustrated until I finally 'ground' him from the internet to get him away from all the negativity.


So there you have it, my little mini rant about how I hate facebook.

Question

Does anyone know where I can go to laminate something that's larger?

Trying new things

So I have a plan, and since we all know how my plans normally turn out (big ideas, not a whole lot of return *sigh*) I'm starting small. I'm going to be getting up at 5am every day. 

Why I'm trying this is that it will force me to go to bed earlier, as well as giving me time by myself to 'prep' for the day without kids running around while I'm trying to get myself ready to walk out the door for work. 

So far (keep in mind this is day one) it's gone okay, I'm up -obviously- but I've been up since 2:30, because I woke up suddenly with no cause and couldn't shut my brain off to go back to sleep. Since then I've made coffee, goofed off and after this will be taking a shower and ironing my shirt for work, then relaxing until I have to leave. If things continue, preferable without having to get up at 2am instead of 5, I think this will work well for me. 

I'm Sorry

I just can't lately, I can't post, I can't get anything done around the house, I just can't do anything lately. It's so hard and so frustrating.
I just start out with so many spoons at the beginning of the day, and somehow they just all slip away before I can make it home from work, and I just feel like I'm running on empty at the time when my family needs me most. Which just drains me so much. (If you have no idea what I'm talking about when I say spoons, click the link above, it's a wonderful article and one of the better explanations that I've seen to explain when I"m feeling just so utterly drained and just feel like I can't function any longer)

I know I'm not, but I just feel like such a failure all the time lately. I know it's very draining for Husband to try to support me as well as keeping everything up around the house, because I'm not much of a help (well, I'm more of a hinderance the last week or so rather than a help)
I don't want anyone to worry about me, I'm doing okay, for the most part, I just need somewhere I can out my feelings and just kind of word vomit somewhere other than in Husband's ear.

A post, before I forget it again (again)

Alternate title: Why I believe The Silence are real.

Now that alternate title might not make sense to everyone, so let me explain. The silence are a Doctor Who villain, and they can only be seen when you look at them.(Pictured below)

When you look away from them, you forget you've seen them and what had happened when you had them in your view.

Now as to why I would argue they might exist, I first noticed it Sunday. Husband (at least I assume it was Husband, because it wasn't me) moved the corkboard pins in the bathroom into a heart shape. I noticed the change on Sunday, but everytime I leave the bathroom and think that I need to tell him that I appreciate the gesture, the thought is just gone from my mind.
(By the way Husband, I think the little pin heart is adorable.)
Further proof, the heart had completely skipped my mind by the time I finished my shower and came out here. The only reason I remembered is because I sent myself a message not to forget.

Long story short, if you see tally marks on my arm, know the silence are about and I've seen them, I just don't remember it.

The age old question

To blog, or to play video games....

Video games won, I'll update tomorrow more about Loki's potty training adventure and what has been working for us and what advice we received.

(Big milestone though, Loki pooped in the potty for the first time today)

Potty Training

We have decided to do 'big girl panties' during all day light hours, and diapers at night until we have a solid grasp on potty training and then go to big girl panties all the time!
Saturday:
We had quite a few accidents, and the only time we made it onto the potty involved a little bit of an accident too.
Feelings were pretty discouraged by the end of the day.
Sunday:
One accident in the morning, and then bam right before nap time Loki does it, she pees in the potty! (which scared her and she though she had done something wrong, which was adorable)
After that we still had a few accidents, including going number 2 in her panties, which was very upsetting.
Monday:
Really feeling like we've got a handle on using the potty for going number 1. Still have yet to figure out the timing on number 2.
Loki does have a little problem with not always getting her panties down before sitting down if she really has to go, but it's getting much better.

All in all, at this point I'm saying it was a successful start to potty training.

I know, I know

I'm really not the best at this. But I'm hoping to update tomorrow about our potty training adventures.

The Great Potty Training Adventure

Is beginning tomorrow.
My current plan is to do a combination of pretty 'big girl' panties and wearing nothing on her bottom half at all for most of the weekend. I'm unsure as to how we're going to handle nap and bed yet, some people say just go with completely bare from now on, because diapers at bed will confuse her.
That being said, I might have to diaper her at night because she never stays in one place (she doesn't always even sleep on her bed, most of the time she sleeps at different spots on the floor, yes I realize my daughter's a little of an odd one.) With that in mind I think it might be a better plan for diapers at night for a little bit, nap time however, we might go ahead and go bare for, I think that will work okay.

Updates tomorrow!

He's dead!?

For the past three days I've kept my goal of at least 10 views each day!
YAY!!!!
Hurrah for me!

Also, I have just been told that Wolverine has been killed! I have no idea how to deal with this. It is kind of an 'about time' feeling. Also at least they didn't do something completely crazy like kill off Rogue or Gambit, then you would have a very angry fan girl.

There will be further updates as I find out more on this topic.

Goals

I have some new goals for this

• Post more often (won't be hard, I almost never post anymore)
• Keep my daily views at least above 10 (which means I will defiantly need to post more)
• Try to have more interactions with the people reading
• Encourage more comments on my blog
• Do more book reviews
• Edit some of the short stories I've already written and have been thinking about posting. 
• Start posting things that I worry might make people upset and so I've been putting off posting them. 

Now let's see if I can keep things going. 

That quiet time

There is a time on Sundays that everyone in my house is asleep but me. It' both calming and peaceful. It's a wonderful reprieve if I'm starting to get overwhelmed by the kids on my own while Husband is resting after working all night.
I've gotten a ton done today (well a ton in comparison to what I've been doing lately) The hallway is cleared of all clothes expect what is about to go into the washing machine, 1 load has been all folded and put away, 1 load folded and will be put away after everyone's up, and the last load is just sitting on the chair waiting for me.
But I'm going to take advantage of the quite and catch up on things that are not house work related.

In other news lately, Odin turned 1 yesterday! It was a wonderful day for us all, we had some friends and family over (although some couldn't make it due to illness, and we missed them) for a small celebration. Odin's favorite present as of yesterday (and most of today) was a card given to him by his great-grandparents. That card has not gotten further than 3 feet from him all day yesterday and today unless he's sleeping. It's actually quite cute.
Loki is loving getting to play with all Odin's new toys, and is having trouble figuring out how to share with everyone. But it's a good learning experience.

Oh! And here is where I actually will ask you a question, next week I have a 3 day weekend and will be taking advantage of it to do our best to potty train Loki in that time. So far my thoughts are just regular panties with the little potty not far away, or nothing on the bottom half at all. What are your thoughts and/or advice you would give me for this potty training event?

Too many words

I have so many thoughts lately, so much bursting, trying to get out. Yet I often find myself at a loss for words when I sit down to type. Or I find myself deleting an entire post because I worry what people will think of me, just like I always have. I want people to like me, I want friends, but I also fear it, worry I will screw it up, that they will want to leave me after getting to know me.
I don't always like myself, I find my actions and inner thoughts too selfish to meet with the person I want to be, too mean and angry. Sometimes even too vengeful.
I have been learning some unpleasant truths about myself lately, and I don't necessairly like them, nor am I sure they can be changed easily, or at all.
I feel so.....I don't even know half the time. Sometimes it feels as if the world is picking on me, picking me apart, tearing me down. Other times I know that I'm only being melodramatic and 'woe is me' unnecessairly, but I can't seem able to drop it.
But now I am finally tired. So I will put my phone away (whoch I'm going to blame for anythong wrong.


See you later cowboy.

Still not feeling the best, actually got sent home from work today due to how sick I was feeling. Kiddos are doing better though.

*wine*

My throat hurts and I'm tired and the kids have been angels while they have been sick and I just want to veg out and go to sleep.

So I will, as soon as Loki goes to bed, which may take a while, child's an insomniac sometimes.

Small Listed update because my brain is slow

I'm doing better with my lists
I suck at the blog update on Mon Wed Fri
Odin has decided cardboard should be chewed on (along with everything else)
Loki still hasn't gotten the hang of potty training despite our different efforts
I still have a fever
I feel slightly woozy and I'm imagining this is what it's like to be slightly buzzed
Sprite jello is the best thing ever!