The New Beginning

3/12/12

empty dishes
tidy up table
shower
gather all dirty dishes
fold one basket of clean clothes
call tb about lanes
bed time routine

Now you may ask yourself why I would need to put something so simple as shower on my list. Well, wait till you have a child, and then you probably won't need to ask anymore.

New Ideas

Well, due to parts of my life changing, my blog is going to change as well. (especially since I can update this from my phone also, so hopefully that will help with these changes)

Husband assigns me a list (that I get to help assign my tasks) that I get done while he's at work and I take care of Munchkin. It's helping center me while dealing with the new stress and completely new routine taking care of Munchkin. I am a horrible creature of habit, and with the new baby it's completely disrupted that. So my lists are helping center me for the day, and also reminding me that I am serving my Husband.

What my goal is going to be is to put my list up every morning, well, morning as in when Munchkin decides it's time to get up. And cross things off as I go, along with little things of what has happened. I think it will be a nice way to me to get more used to writing again, and also working on getting more little routines going so I feel a lot more normal and settled. Cause evidently when I don't feel normal and settled I'm kind of a bitch, and I really don't like that, so it needs to change.

And it will!

To my cousin M

It's been almost two years since you were killed. I know I don't post on your Facebook wall or your memory page, and sometimes I feel like I'm not grieving right because of that. But if I remember right you weren't really on Facebook all that much anyways.
I also feel guilty because I don't think of you everyday. But I didn't think of you everyday when you were alive either. I do miss you M, in my own way. When I watch Fantasia with Munchkin I remember watching with you A and Ber, talking about our favorite musical parts. I don't remember yours, but I know A and Ber both loved the fish from the Nutcracker Suite.
I also remember playing at Grandma and Grandpa's, exploring the old barn, playing in the greenhouse, and Uncle's attic. A being the wise woman sending us all on quests. Going down to the barn for chores, playing with the kittens and newborn calves.
Sadly most of my memories are of our childhood. I do wish we could have gotten to know each other more as adults, but it's the human fault to think we have more time.
I do miss you M, in my own quiet way.

Good news everyone!

Husband has a job! Well, two actually. He's working as a part-time salesman, and a part-time driver for an auto store. I'm so very proud of him! And some of the best news is that if everything goes well I'll get to stay at home with Munchkin!

The first Christmas

We had our first Christmas celebration today. Went to MawMa's and got to see both her daughters and all of their kids, it was great to hear MawMa literally squeal in glee to see her oldest granddaughter and great-granddaughter. Munchkin was the life of the party, even though she slept through most of it. Everyone was so happy to see her, I think I only ever held her when she was hungry and needed fed...
I'm looking forward to saturday and going to the Christmas Eve service at the church I grew up at. It's my favorite Christmas tradition. And then Christmas day we're going over to Ber's house to open presents. It'll be so much fun.
Husband hasn't heard anything from his siblings, and nothing from his mother either, so I don't believe that we will be seeing them. And it's very sad to me, I understand his feeling towards his mother at this point (to tell the truth I'm more than a little upset and very disappointed at her responses as well) but I am not going to oppose his decisions concerning her. However, I know he wanted to see his siblings, and from one sister we haven't even heard back from, and the other we never got any solid plans for a sibling meet up and exchanging of gifts.
I suppose if nothing else we'll just surprise visit the siblings that live in Kansas and drop off their gifts, but I know Husband really wanted to have some sit down time and show off Munchkin to his brothers that haven't gotten to see her yet, who knows what will happen.
As for me, I'm just keeping my fingers crossed and being hopeful.

Further Adventures in Cloth Diapering

Today about washing, well, hand washing. Luckily after our first foray into it Husband and I have realized that presently we cannot constantly cloth diaper, we just don't have enough pre-folds to do so.
Our current plan is to cloth diaper during the day when we can keep a better eye on Loki and make sure the urine isn't staying close to her skin, and then we are using disposable diapers at night. We're also trying to develop our schedule of how we take care of/wash the diapers. We've been letting the dirty ones soak in cold water, and then right before we go to bed, we're using the tub to hand wash them. It's not much fun, but I'm the luckiest woman in the world, because not only does Husband help take care of the dirty diapers as they're dirty but he also helps me hand wash, poor guy, he learned to hand wash just so he could help me out and make it seem like I wasn't the only one trying to make things work.

Tell you what, I got damn lucky with Husband, he's my partner, not just the head of the house. And he always makes me feel as if I deserve to be by his side, that I am his equal in that way.

With Loki's slow but steady weight gain Husband and I made the decision that unless she wakes up we're letting her sleep for up to 6 hours a night. It was a little nerve wracking last night, just the worry in and of its self, but I think it's better all around for us.

Well that was nice...

Husband, Loki and I went to church again this morning (honestly it's easier getting up for church now that we have a kid, cause we've gotta get up anyways) Husband enjoys it, because he gets to re-connect with people he used to see every Sunday when he was younger and i enjoy it because I just flat-out missed going to church. We have a little bit of a drive unfortunately, but since things are working out so well I really do think it's worth it. The church is giving us what we want this time around, for me a good worship service, songs I enjoy and a lot of them I actually know, plus a few new ones thrown in, and an engaging service that gives me lots of opportunities to take notes. (yeah, I'm one of those people that enjoys taking notes during church)