He's dead!?

For the past three days I've kept my goal of at least 10 views each day!
YAY!!!!
Hurrah for me!

Also, I have just been told that Wolverine has been killed! I have no idea how to deal with this. It is kind of an 'about time' feeling. Also at least they didn't do something completely crazy like kill off Rogue or Gambit, then you would have a very angry fan girl.

There will be further updates as I find out more on this topic.

Goals

I have some new goals for this

• Post more often (won't be hard, I almost never post anymore)
• Keep my daily views at least above 10 (which means I will defiantly need to post more)
• Try to have more interactions with the people reading
• Encourage more comments on my blog
• Do more book reviews
• Edit some of the short stories I've already written and have been thinking about posting. 
• Start posting things that I worry might make people upset and so I've been putting off posting them. 

Now let's see if I can keep things going. 

That quiet time

There is a time on Sundays that everyone in my house is asleep but me. It' both calming and peaceful. It's a wonderful reprieve if I'm starting to get overwhelmed by the kids on my own while Husband is resting after working all night.
I've gotten a ton done today (well a ton in comparison to what I've been doing lately) The hallway is cleared of all clothes expect what is about to go into the washing machine, 1 load has been all folded and put away, 1 load folded and will be put away after everyone's up, and the last load is just sitting on the chair waiting for me.
But I'm going to take advantage of the quite and catch up on things that are not house work related.

In other news lately, Odin turned 1 yesterday! It was a wonderful day for us all, we had some friends and family over (although some couldn't make it due to illness, and we missed them) for a small celebration. Odin's favorite present as of yesterday (and most of today) was a card given to him by his great-grandparents. That card has not gotten further than 3 feet from him all day yesterday and today unless he's sleeping. It's actually quite cute.
Loki is loving getting to play with all Odin's new toys, and is having trouble figuring out how to share with everyone. But it's a good learning experience.

Oh! And here is where I actually will ask you a question, next week I have a 3 day weekend and will be taking advantage of it to do our best to potty train Loki in that time. So far my thoughts are just regular panties with the little potty not far away, or nothing on the bottom half at all. What are your thoughts and/or advice you would give me for this potty training event?

Too many words

I have so many thoughts lately, so much bursting, trying to get out. Yet I often find myself at a loss for words when I sit down to type. Or I find myself deleting an entire post because I worry what people will think of me, just like I always have. I want people to like me, I want friends, but I also fear it, worry I will screw it up, that they will want to leave me after getting to know me.
I don't always like myself, I find my actions and inner thoughts too selfish to meet with the person I want to be, too mean and angry. Sometimes even too vengeful.
I have been learning some unpleasant truths about myself lately, and I don't necessairly like them, nor am I sure they can be changed easily, or at all.
I feel so.....I don't even know half the time. Sometimes it feels as if the world is picking on me, picking me apart, tearing me down. Other times I know that I'm only being melodramatic and 'woe is me' unnecessairly, but I can't seem able to drop it.
But now I am finally tired. So I will put my phone away (whoch I'm going to blame for anythong wrong.


See you later cowboy.

Still not feeling the best, actually got sent home from work today due to how sick I was feeling. Kiddos are doing better though.

*wine*

My throat hurts and I'm tired and the kids have been angels while they have been sick and I just want to veg out and go to sleep.

So I will, as soon as Loki goes to bed, which may take a while, child's an insomniac sometimes.

Small Listed update because my brain is slow

I'm doing better with my lists
I suck at the blog update on Mon Wed Fri
Odin has decided cardboard should be chewed on (along with everything else)
Loki still hasn't gotten the hang of potty training despite our different efforts
I still have a fever
I feel slightly woozy and I'm imagining this is what it's like to be slightly buzzed
Sprite jello is the best thing ever!