I just can't lately, I can't post, I can't get anything done around the house, I just can't do anything lately. It's so hard and so frustrating.
I just start out with so many spoons at the beginning of the day, and somehow they just all slip away before I can make it home from work, and I just feel like I'm running on empty at the time when my family needs me most. Which just drains me so much. (If you have no idea what I'm talking about when I say spoons, click the link above, it's a wonderful article and one of the better explanations that I've seen to explain when I"m feeling just so utterly drained and just feel like I can't function any longer)
I know I'm not, but I just feel like such a failure all the time lately. I know it's very draining for Husband to try to support me as well as keeping everything up around the house, because I'm not much of a help (well, I'm more of a hinderance the last week or so rather than a help)
I don't want anyone to worry about me, I'm doing okay, for the most part, I just need somewhere I can out my feelings and just kind of word vomit somewhere other than in Husband's ear.
Aw honey every mother goes through this at some point. It is hard to keep up with family and work, especially if there are problems at either one. Super mom is a myth, super tired ,sleep deprived, no time or energy to cook dinner after working all day and running everyone around is a reality. Sometimes we choose, is it better to hit the high spots in keeping house and spend more time with the kids. The kids will remember the time spent with them more than they will spotless floors. Two kids, getting two kids ready to go someplace is more work than taking one. Next doctors appointment ask for an anemia check and thyroid test. Either of those can result in less energy. Also some people have a condition called SAD where the less sunlight in winter months can cause depression and energy loss. There are special lights a person can get to help with that. Even without the special lights back when I was working just having a more natural daylight lamp and extra lighting where I got ready for work in the morning helped get me going. Hang in there , it gets better
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